assistant fox keeper @somekindofcrow@awoo.space

Okay so now that I'm a week in and no longer feeling physically terrible... Two things I have noticed about HRT:

1 - I am still angry but instead of overwhelming incoherent rage I've been able to sharpen it to a fine point and have been smiling while telling people to go to hell.

2 - The part of me that's basically just a slice of oblivion is inaccessible. Like, I try to reach for it but it's not there. I am not capable of wanting to kill myself.

Okay now that the spiro isn't making it hurt to pee this whole hrt thing feels kind of good.

tfw you find out the person you have a crush on from playing an mmo with is like 15 years younger than you are and you feel creepy :3 :3 :3

So i just send my doctor a note that begins with "it hurts when I poop is this normal on spiro???"

Like it feels I ate Indian food that is too spicy but I have not eaten any spicy food in weeks.

So anyway Faceboop is advertising diy vagina swab kit startup to me now.

I feel like I got some trans achievement points there.

Okay wow one minute after my first titty Skittle and I'm already a submissive fox girl.

Wait no i didn't need drugs for that.

So the Bellevue pharmacy has so much estrogen that they decided to give me three times as much as my doctor prescribed.

I am balancing the hormone economy of the greater Puget Sound area.

So I finally committed and got a prescription and THE PHARMACY RAN OUT OF ESTROGEN.

When I type "ahhhh" my phone's predictive texting suggests "gender" for the next word.

I am in charge of interviewing someone who may unintentionally out me (and I have no way of telling them not to do that without going through official channels) so I am secretly rearranging schedules and such so that only people I'm okay being out to will be able to make that group interview.

I am literally casting glamour through schedule changes and meeting requests.

Hashtag fey management y'all.

I should be eating pizza rolls at 11:30 PM.

But I'm sad and it's my birthday so fuck it.

I have been thinking about this a lot and I think "there is no ethical consumption under capitalism" should be changed to "there is no ethical existence under capitalism".

At the same time I've been contemplating converting back to the pagan traditions of my ancestors where everyone burns in hell except some burn more than others.

Hm.

I'm 35.
I'm also still alive.
Hooray.

I accidentally stumbled on an adult baby / little community and now I'm looking at cute adult-sized onesies.

Welp.

Me, earlier today, upon stepping out into the cold without a cold: "AHHHH THIS WAS A MISTAKE LACE AND CHIFFON ARE NOT GOOD FOR INSULATION!!!"

I mean I was cute as fuck in that dress though so.

It's Valentine's Day and I hate everything.

Still alive tho so yay.

Fox orb must be retooted it is the law of the fox orb.

Work mode for a moment: Hey local frens does anyone have posting access to internal mailing lists at Microsoft (and maybe Google and Amazon too) for spouses / people related to employees looking for not-tech-related jobs and can post a couple job openings for me?

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