negative; job woes, suicide mention
i'm so so so tired of working this shitty part-time job
i'm barely getting 18-20 hours most weeks and the lease is expiring soon
but there's literally no job out there that i could get, i either don't fit the education requirements, i don't have a license, i can't stand for 283429423894 hours at a time, or it requires a lot of direct contact and talking with people
i just absolutely locked up on an AUTOMATED phone interview and hung up
what fucking use am i???? i should really just die i'm gonna have to do it when i become homeless anyway bc there's no way i'll be able to come back from that
unpopular opinion
the hunger games simulator website was interesting for like the first few games but it's almost 2019 can we stop acting like it's funny
god damn that's the only thing i won't miss from tumblr are the mile-long posts where someone on a ROLEPLAY BLOG just absolutely felt the need to liveblog their entire fucking game
"i need to make a deltarune oc" i say shortly before my old undertale oc kicks me in the mouth and demands a redesign
negative; losing the drive to do things, light nsfw
i guess it's the Depression(tm) but like.. i don't have a creative drive anymore. i'll think of very loose, one-sentence concepts, but i can't act on them.
i'm just barely able to write chapters for my one fic on ao3, but even then they're maybe a minute's read
drawing is way difficult, i just.. have no inspiration and can't find reason TO draw. "draw for yourself" but what if i don't want what i can make
my sex drive is pretty much gone, too. and that used to be like, a big thing for me. like drawing.
i wish i could fix it.
here are some nice waterfowl i took photos of
#photography #birds #ducks #geese
fun fact: the goose isn't even native to north america. we have no idea how it got here.
henlo i'm tenta i'm a big cat
catterfly drew my icon and i'm love her???
my shitposts are at @meow@berries.space