(~) Inner darkness
Several years ago I came out of a long & rather bad depressive period. During that time I developed some darkness, the trouble is that darkness doesn't go away.
Now the good thing is that darkness is not inherintly bad, it can be good, but it has prerequisites to be so, some of which can be complex & difficult. That darkness is part of me now & in a way i need it, but I also need that something which makes my darkness a good one, but that's not easy & might even be impossible.