wolfe but sad @wolfgang@awoo.space

you know how german speakers always maintain a list in their head, of who they need to address with <du> or <Sie> (regular word for 'you' vs special word for 'you' that feels a bit like how adding "ma'am/sir" feels)

well,,,, i seem to have inadvertently created a similar situation for myself in hebrew: when i text with someone, i need to remember if i text with them using he/him grammatical gender or using mixed s.he/him.er grammatical gender 🙃

update: it's working again, false alarm, you can keep opening more tabs everyone

hmm mobile firefox doesn't want to start up anymore. have i finally discovered how many tabs is too many tabs?

hmmm how many bars of white chocolate will i need to eat to approximate a full day's minimum caloric intake...........

we may call them abled,, but they're definitely not able to accommodate anyone

you know those ENTP-J/ETCS-3/FAT-32 personality type acronyms people put on dating profiles? i'm considering putting "AUTI-ST personality type" on mine and if anyone gets the joke, i'll marry them

one good thing about living in tlv:

it's 10pm and the streets feel alive, and i can actually find food, and i won't be the only person at a food place that's just about to close

been thinking about this poem a lot lately

i looked around for an english translation but none of the ones i found actually kept the original rhyming pattern, so i tried to make one myself that mostly does 😳

I could only ever speak for myself, by Rachel Bluwstein

I could only ever speak for myself
My world is as narrow as that of the ant,
Even my cargo I carried like her,
Too much and too heavy for shoulders so scant.

And on my way — as her way to the top —
A road lined with pain and a road made of toil,
The hands of the giants, malicious, don't stop,
Such that every advancement I make they may foil.

All my attempts were mocked and made tearful
By hands of the giants and trembling frights.
Why have you beckoned, O beaches of wonder?
Why did you lie to me, O distant lights?

רַק עַל עַצְמִי לְסַפֵּר יָדַעְתִּי
צַר עוֹלָמִי כְּעוֹלַם נְמָלָה,
גַּם מַשָּׂאִי עָמַסְתִּי כָּמוֹהָ
רַב וְכָבֵד מִכְּתֵפִי הַדַּלָּה.

גַּם אֶת דַרְכִּי – כְּדַרְכָּהּ אֶל צַמֶּרֶת –
דֶּרֶך מַכְאוֹב וְדֶרֶךְ עָמָל,
יַד עֲנָקִים זְדוֹנָה וּבוֹטַחַת,
יַד מִתְבַּדַּחַת שָׂמָה לְאַל.

כָּל אָרְחוֹתַי הִלִּיז וְהִדְמִיע
פַּחַד טָמִיר מִיַּד עֲנָקִים.
לָמָּה קְרָאתֶם לִי, חוֹפֵי הַפֶּלֶא?
לָמָה כְּזַבְתֶּם, אוֹרוֹת רְחוֹקִים?

aaaaa wtffffff there's a town in northern israel whose sign is the same as the sign for "mass shooting" because of a terror attack in the 1970s

one of the only survivors was a baby, because their mother hid them. they stayed quiet the entire time and weren't found until later, alive and well, and soon discovered to be deaf.

this name origin story is just...... so quintessentially israeli

you see, it's funny because in hebrew, the "aut" in autism (/otizm/ <אוטיזם>) and the "ott" in ottawa (/otawa/ <אוטווה>) both sound identical, which they don't in my american accent

(though they might, in, like, some obscure rural scottish dialect i don't know of)

of course i'm allistic! autism only counts as real autism if it's from the ottawa region of canada. otherwise it's just sparkling general anxiety disorder and selective mutism

everything is always an uphill battle and i wish things got easier for a while

i should not have come back to this terrible country

i made a sign that says "can hear, can't speak, i know a little sign language" with some symbols and stuff

but a LOT of people in israel just respond to it by saying "i don't know any sign language" and just walking away

just now at the bookstore, i showed the sign and the person behind the counter immediately yelled at me "i don't have any!!!" and i was like "???" so he repeated "don't have any!!!!!!" and i was terribly confused and showed the sign again

so he said "yeah! i know. i just don't know any sign language" then turned to look at his computer and ignore me completely

like...... dude............. i have a smartphone....... you're surrounded by papers and pens all around your desk.................... what the actual fuck?

shirts that cost $60 here but are so low quality that even primark would have thrown them away

MAN i should have bought more clothes in the us cause they're all twice the price and half the quality in israel :|