Not really used to just posting stuff like this. normally I like to be very private about personal stuff, but lately, it feels like all of my support systems and coping measures have been falling apart. I haven't been able to focus on work for more than a week and more and more often lately I just want to curl up in disappear.

someone I had cut out of my life recently came back into it and I let them in because I was lonely and just wanted someone, ya know? but since then all this self-doubt and self-hate has just bubbled back up from back then. I'm not sure what to do now, I've cut off contact with them but it's hard and the last time I went through this I had someone to help me get through it, but now that person doesn't seem to want anything to do with me and I'm just alone again.

I don't know why I'm even posting this, I just want to say this to someone, I guess it doesn't matter who so as long as someone else hears it.