realization (mh- kinda, general apology)
... I seriously think I lie to myself so that it doesn't feel like I'm lying to people I care about when I say I'm busy but really I just don't have the spoons left to share positive interaction with people.
I'm sorry if I've done that to you. I seriously am.
@Draekos It's fine to not have the spoons for things. Just know that you're valued, whether you can work on stuff or not.