gosh... running my fingers through my hair and it is so good and it's getting longer and gosh
also I've been like thinking about girl stuff again and just gosh, I don't have a clue if I wanna be that or not just gosh, I wanna go to a girl's house and get dressed up and just try it out maybe.
Slide on thigh highs and put me in a cute dress and do my hair up idk idc just... I wanna try it with someone who's already tread that ground ;-;
I'm noticing that I feel like doing this kind of stuff when I'm feeling happy and positive and comfortable, but when I get anxious and stressed I don't really feel like it - feels a little wrong but moreso I'm just not interested. I don't really know what that says, but that might just be a product of depression. The same thing happens to my sex drive after all.
humm, now I'm still in a bleh mood but feeling this a bit more... it almost seems like a time of day thing? Girl by day, boy by night? My emotions are weird. Put me in a dress and thigh highs.
IIIIIIIIIIIIIII think it's tied to how positively I feel about my body because when I think I look good I wanna try being cute but when I feel more like a lumbering bad thing I shy away...
