neurojunk
cran explaining to me how lack of eye contact works for conveying that one is feeling bad emotions with me just sitting there like "what the *fuck*"
i can make eye contact. it feels weird and sometimes it's painful, but usually it's fine. this is how i convinced myself i wasn't autistic for a couple decades.
then hearing someone i trust explain that it has significance and people get information out of it is like. what. how
re: neurojunk
@astra Wow, yeah...that's a pretty uncomfortable revelation. I literally can't maintain eye contact, because then the face stops looking like a face after a few seconds, and that bugs the hell out of me. Also it feels overwhelming.
It's not that I am having a shit day, although dealing with NTs certainly increased the chances of that happening.