Today, I transcribed what I could, with the energy that I have. I hand write all the starts to my chapters, and while I was on a roll yesterday, today I don't have energy to finish.
It is what it is.
I feel guilty for not being Superperson. I think that's capitalism, the expectation on immigrant children to exceed the expectations placed on their white counter parts, esp in education system (we can't be plain and lazy, racist and ableist) and also what ppl desire from me
@CaribenxMarciaX Yeah, that's toxic meritocracy for you, I was really badly into the whole guilting myself into squeezing every last drop of productivity out of my day until my GF called me out and said "Wow, you must really hate yourself!"
:goes and lays down in shame:
@CaribenxMarciaX Why the shame? The point is that while productivity is good, it should never come at the cost of your physical and mental health. And that it's okay to not be productive when things just aren't happening for you.
@CaribenxMarciaX nods It's a hard habit to unlearn, tbh.
@FreyaManibrandr bc i know this yet i dont *do* this