i think i have a good idea to summarize the world i lived in that shaped my default worldview for the worse
imagine a world where most everyone your age rejects you for being different, and everyone older than you is either extremely unreasonable and unthinkingly authoritarian (rules and laws are king even if they're terrible and hypocritical, even if we all know they're bad) or they're the few who at least hear you out, even if they're beholden to people who are also like that and their hands are tied
you sure get some very cynical, jaded and dark ideas about people by default, and you pre-emptively dismiss them
and you kind of become one of them yourself, which is the insidious thing!
@KitRedgrave This is why we always at least try to reach out to people, even if it may not likely work out.
Honestly, this world is just wrong, we live in a world where our trust is broken right from the crib, betrayal is considered a part of life, and we end up hardening our hearts so that it doesn't happen to us.
Yet I can't help but think we've lost much more of ourselves than we can imagine living like this.
@KitRedgrave This is why it's important to fight the conditioning. It's difficult, it's fucking difficult, but it's important to try, try, and keep trying.
"But what about the bad actors?"
These are very persistent thoughts that easily breach our defenses, and it's important to remember that we'd be trying to address the conditions that produce bad actors, not work towards punishing them.