I have this fantasy where I take a giant eraser and begin deleting everything I've ever said and done, leaving people with an abstract idea that we're friends, but no actual memories of me. Just... winding myself back up into a ball from the present to the beginning. Deleting all the wrong ideas people have/had about me, and all the misleading paths I've walked down backwards. There never was such a person, no embarrassing cluster by that name, no consistent or noticeable set of attributes belonging to me.
It would be so nice to be generic. To have people vaguely approve of me and give warm fuzzies in my direction but have no real ideas about me. That would be so refreshing.
