agender, introspective, longish
A common thing, especially among trans friends, is that allowing oneself to express and be their gender is extremely powerful. But how does that work when you explore there and find absolutely nothing? Not a default configuration, not NB, not a suppressed narrative, but nothing — a tabula rasa in which impostor syndrome turned out to be correct?
I’ve been struggling with that for awhile, and I decided I’d build my own. I’m not good at this yet, but I’m trying.