Depression
Every day just feels like slow suffocation. I keep trying to do my job, but my mind can't go five minutes without reminding me of all the immediate problems facing me. Also reminding me that my job doesn't pay enough to matter in regard to any of my pressing problems. I can't concentrate. I spend 12 hours (not even fully) getting done stuff that used to take me 2 hours.
Depression
I can't even fuck around to take my mind off of any of this. Games don't bring enjoyment. Sex doesn't bring enjoyment. There isn't much of me in me at this point. I eat. I sleep. I sit at a computer trying to force myself to work. And when I have to talk to the people I work with, it's all an act. Me putting on my best imitation of myself because that's all I can do right now.