I was thinking earlier that my mind's clicked over to accepting that I have white privilege, because white privilege is *luck*, and over the last few years my mind's clicked over to thinking I am fortunate rather than put-upon a lot more often.

And I don't think this is accidental, my childhood had all these messages about suffering justifying getting things, about having to justify getting things/deserve having things, and then blanket assumption that if you're in power, you must be good. I figure there's an us versus them thing which can explain authorities seen as not good, or how people suffering might be punished and therefore bad. So the idea that you got somewhere because you're lucky is completely alien to that (and I guess it's the distinction handed the Bad People).

Like; it's this huge clusterfuck that *just* tackling it as a racism thing can't resolve, if that makes any sense?

(And to further detail; I don't, and will never, consider myself white. But I definitely think I pass such that white privilege has literally saved my life in the past, I can tell you exactly when. I was gonna friends lock this but ehh, I initially didn't so I'll run with it.)