oh shit folks it’s actually slow at work today somehow which means I have time to feel shit like anger and loss. And given that I’ve been better about self hate that means I am angry at landlords, Christians and Republicans in general, and my parents, none of which I can do anything about.
Today’s one of those days where, if by just wanting it you could have a massive stroke or aneurysm and punch out quickly and honorably, I wouldn’t be around this evening. We don’t get that lucky, so I figure I get a walk and maybe lunch in a bit and tread water a bit longer.