So then my boss did something, I assume unintentionally, that really triggered me. He doesn’t know this and doesn’t need to know this. In the middle of trying to complete a multilayered task i also fielded a more involved phone call, while having my brain scream about how an angry adult or peer was now about to open up on me about how shitty I am. I felt like my ability to respond was really going away with panic about making the adult/peer happy.
I am still on edge.