I have a huge block of free time and an actually functional brain

finally time to shower and break out of the ADHD loop I've been in about this

it literally is only a problem because of the completely unpredictable event of my power going out

like I'll have to look for a job, but really I just want to live on my own leisurely schedule because I could do so much better but no, I'm constantly being asked to do certain things at certain times or prevented from doing them when I'm about to do them and that's killer with ADHD and no amount of logical reasoning changes that aspect of my brain

never mind the whole most definitely being a night owl thing but expected to be at my peak during one of the lowest points of my energy because morning larks rule the world

it's a pity kind of that I'm going on the trip, because it would be nice to finally have the time to get this place organized that I keep not really getting, and 5 days isn't going to cut it with my brain I feel like

never mind the degree of guilt I feel about even going on that trip though I intend to mask pretty much everywhere along with the money when I'm literally losing my job

I think it'll be ok though.

sorry for this thread, I just needed to vent a little

God that was good and overdue

now I can just work on my hair

looking at it when wet, it's completely possible I could pull off a short version of Ada's hair

I might get that done

I love the poof, I want people to feel the poof, but braided hair down feels like it'd be read as femme