We’d all be better off if this were the day a massive stroke or heart attack took me out, but we’re not that lucky, so I will try to do an okay job.
@Leucrotta WOAH woah woah - back the fuck up.
While I doubt you ACCIDENTALLY misspelled "UNlucky", you've still got a number of critical errors in that statement, friend, that I am compelled to rectify:
Meeting and interacting with you, here, has been engaging, encouraging, exciting, and profound.
You are APPRECIATED. I appreciate my friend Leucrotta, whom I know as Rain Dog!
I would be VERY SAD if something happened to them.
THANK YOU for taking care of my good friend 🙏
No one else can 🫂
@GoodNewsGreyShoes thanks, just; even if I can get past a background being trained I’m a complete fuck up here to convenience someone superior, it’s very difficult to get past the feeling I’ll always be officially regarded as a fuck up or officially required to be mostly someone else’s convenience. If that makes sense?
@Leucrotta it took three stress leaves & two full years of counseling to figure out wtf happened to the remains of my heart 😵💫
I have no idea what your situation is, or exactly what you're feeling/going thru.
But I DO know what it feels like to know you will never measure up to the standards of the people you care about.
Devastating, crushing despair.
It is a lie, tho. A disappointing, hurtful, callous lie.
You deserve love. You're worth my love, their love, your own love, and more besides♥️
@Leucrotta Yes. Yes it fuckin' does 😮💨
My older brother is a genuine narcissist, but we never realized how deep it went until very recently.
Growing up in that context, I spent my entire childhood feeling like I wasn't QUITE good enough for him - always reaching, never achieving.
Ff 20 years when I worked under another narcissist who cared for me far less, but I'd been perfectly primed to serve.
I got pandered & pampered, then used up like toilet paper & thrown under the bus so hard it 1/2