i shouldn’t be sleeping. i shouldn’t be socializing. I need to do more. i need to be more.
I don’t want to die

i can’t control my focus but if i just don’t ever stop
maybe i can survive

something has to work, or i’m dead

please please please if anyone has information or advice on how to make myself function unmedicated

or what else might be wrong with me
i’ll take anything

i want to live and i’m trying so hard and i’m so sorry
it’s so bad and it feels so crushing all the time. i barely have the energy for anything else. i’m quiet all the time, i don’t want to talk. I don’t want to exist. i need help. i’m begging for help. i can’t give an answer to how because all I feel is the pain and other people can’t make me function

please, i’m begging, don’t let me be quiet. I need people. I don’t have energy a lot of time. i’m so terrified of losing it all, or not being enough to live
i want to talk all the time. i want to talk to you. i feel crushed, i feel ashamed, all the time, so i dont