yesterday's realization that this election pushes some fairly personal buttons;

* people considered to be good seem to get away with anything, as though it's been decided that because they've been the officially good people in the past, that can't change.

* the ADHD/C/PTSD screwed perception of time. I heard about Trump nonstop before 2016, in 2017-2020 even when I was less politically active because I was depressed and sick he was still there, after 2020 he was constantly there thanks to ever-new items of bullshit he'd pulled in office, now it's 2024 and even if he somehow loses I anticipate election denial, possible insurrection, and further new items to mean he's constantly there. To my broken brain all this feels like I've almost never lived and will never live without his constant threat.