CPTSD tells you no, it was this way yesterday and last month, it will be this way tomorrow and three months from now. PTSD tells you that you need to scramble and NOW or there will be no tomorrow or three months from now, who cares how much of a wreck you are.

A gentler belief in an organic shift - whether that's feeling better in a few hours, or life overall improving in weeks or years, is a GREAT counter to this. Thinking this requires conscious effort for me.

But aging dumps me right back in C/PTSD mindset. Sure, I could slowly save up to replace the car or get a fursuit someday - but what are the chances some adult will come up with a way to destroy my savings and upend my life in the meantime? Sure, I could trust that drawing what feels good right now will help me get through the week and eventually be practice that adds up - but how long do I have before cancer or heart disease takes me out and I never get around to the big drawings I'd wanted? That sort of thing.

Does that make sense?