CBT is informing me that there are plenty of things I get right because nothing is a quick toggle switch, and that I don't in fact know what the future holds.
However, this isn't getting my brain to shut up about how I get everything wrong and how, as a function of what a shit excuse for a person I am, I'm going to wind up as isolated as I deserve to be.
Plan is to shower, dump myself into clothes, get on the road to *somewhere*, and worry about getting enough sleep later.