Also, this might be some internalized toxic masculinity, but...
I really didn't feel comfortable coming out and presenting more Femme until this last year because I'd already had so much trouble getting taken seriously in the Male Hierarchy. I'd been lied to that Achievement was the gold standard and would get you Respect.
It only gets you resentment from the older men who control things. So fuck that, I'm more than satisfied with how many punched spaces I have on my "Man Card"