Social gender stuff
On the one hand, I'm finally naturally comfortable in myself, as myself, presenting Male and knowing that I'm Valid. But it's like an outfit I can wear, if what I'm doing and who I'm with makes it optimal.
For a lot of the rest of my life, Female seems to be the optimal presentation, attitude, accessories, Everything. Not that being Male would be bad for these things, but just Sub-Optimal.
It's a weird dysphoria to have.