i hate looking at this queue, looking at the inbox i havent touched in weeks, looking at pending messages, & just getting this immediate black hole in my guts, this overwhelming & paralyzing anxiety that shuts down my ability to even -think- about it w/o wanting to die or at least sleep

how the fuck am i supposed to do anything when thats what happens

"just do it" is the least helpful thing in the world btw

im not cut out for this "working in order to live" thing am i

it fuckin kills me bc ive shown i -can- do it before, i have times where im -absolutely- competent & in a good flow & everything

but its the exception to the rule & i can never maintain it for long. & then it turns into soul-crushing anxiety from hell

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@skolli Well, Lately you've been Korki. Last time I saw a productive person on the other end, it was the Ringtail Girl. Go bring her back, and Apologize.

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