Mh(-), unreality
Does anyone else ever feel like merely existing from day to day tends to be an obligation like-- keeping up with big servers and news things and work saps a lot of my HP to the point where I feel like a lot of the time I'm just sorta floating around because oops I forgot how to be a person today, nothing that's happened is real. And I think a part of that is coping. I sorta drown myself in fantasy because reality isn't great, it's why I draw and do fantasy work. I just wish I could stay connected with people a little better without expending most of my energy to do so! And react to stimuli cause holy shit I am super faded in the flesh and even over voice I sound super exhausted
Mh(-), unreality
Waow! I'm pretty depressed! There's some other pretty major factors playing into that (dysphoria, January isn't a great month, severe insomnia) but like. I've never simultaneously felt so disconnected and overloaded at the same time, it's just absolutely bizarre.
Mh(-), unreality
@Mottie unreality is a Thing, especially under those circumstances. I suffer from it a Lot, and it's extremely distressing.
But it's because the real world has been slipping away bit by bit. More and more of our lives exist in, and Serve a virtual spirit realm.
And Reality has been Pilfered bit by bit over the last three decades as the Boomers decided they weren't interested in Real Life anymore, because reality Got Away From Them.
Mh(-), unreality
@Motodrachen yeah! Like I was saying in the other line of the conversation here is like. I want to establish some connections irl because I feel like I merely take up space when I am out and about, and I'm not anywhere close to realizing myself and it's jarring to a point where I'm like, dissociating at work!
Orlando gender health Care is pretty weak to say the least and the local lgtbq groups are bracketed for like ... 16-24 yr olds and older folks so I'm sorta in that weird void with a few other people in the local area that I know about? But once I get my tax return I'll try to spoil myself just a bit so that I feel better about my image !