But, like... When I faced down that part of me there was nothing left. I'd been so neurotic about toxic masculinity, I'd alienated a bunch of parts of myself that were Vital.
So as much as I've always been drawn towards the idea of being a Woman... Like, it's not representative of Reality.
That being said, being a Man is equally off the table. Having to figure out what it means to be Both in today's society.