gender stuff
i hate when i sound like a valley girl/super femme with people because i know they just see me as a girl and it feels gross..if i told them how i feel they'd think it was fake
re: gender stuff
@Motodrachen what's kinda fucked is that i can be super comfortable around my mom with the way i talk and act. I've joked about it and she's seen "Davey" on various accounts/devices so she knows i like that name etc. But a lot of times when i meet other people, even if i get to "start fresh" and introduce myself as Davey, i get so nervous i often fall back into being super femme the way i raised 
re: gender stuff
@Motodrachen yeah 
i get caught up in how i must look to people...like, preemptively bitter lol
re: gender stuff
@fructose_dealer Yeah that developed into full blown disassociative identity disorder here.
It's really Really hard to have a Definite presentation when you're in-between. For us, making it Official as it were would just involve growing some titties and apologizing to No-one.
