It's a weird doublethink being physically male and also a Witch: Like not Trying to be a witch, just Being that thing. Like your whole Existence is a big loophole in the rules.

This is complicated somewhat by being multisys. Like we used to think Keri was the Witch, but now it's All of us. And Tohri wanted to just be a "Normal" Engineer.

After Much examination, the male bit just seems like a Legal designation more than anything. We know what to do with Legal stuff: Fuck it, as much as possible.
It's a black and white view of the world.

We need to stop looking at this internal situation as a Contradiction. It's like being born half-vampire, Or half-anything! It's not a bug, it's a Feature.

It's not Nosferatu, it's Blade!
Werewolves complain that something that's part Wolf and Part Human is a kind of Dog. It's only that if you look at it that way.

We're not used to this Confusion though; To all of us, we're sort of on a permanent Provisional license from The Goddess. Like being in a state where you can just keep renewing your motorcycle learners permit, Or living in a state where the kinda motorcycles you like riding skirt the laws entirely, on a technicality no-one ever checks up on.

And I'm not sure why that feeling has me Crying right now, but it does. I'm not an Impostor, I'm just in a totally different category than everyone else, and I've gotta be confident in what i am.

Because everything is a test. It comes with every tree in the forest being sacred. It comes with all the Mother's blessings being bundled up with her curses.
Her punishments are there to Teach us, not shame us.