Well, finally, a week after it happened, I'm finally starting to get over having to cut my Family off from my life for good.

I spent two weeks digging up why I felt age-regressed, scared, unable to make decisions and hear my inner voice.

My parents and a bunch of bosses had used me, gaslit me, and treated me like I was a Thing, not a Person. It was so pervasive, I just thought Everyone was an Asshole until proven Otherwise, because I couldn't tell Real criticism from Malignant narcissism.

And along that path, I realized something Else: The Malignant Narcissists don't want you to see them, Ever. They'll say they're anything But, that they're really your Best Friend, or Love You, or just want you to be Happy, but then they go and Do things that are Just for Them.

It resulted in a people-pleaser mentality for me, that developed into a Pathology: No matter how well you do, you're set up to Fail. Why?

Everyone around a Narcissist has to Fail. If you start Succeeding, they will come Right Over to make you feel like shit and that you have to Work Harder.

I never tired out, I just sickened physically and almost Died from the stress of dancing around to keep the other person Satisfied, Happy, and their stated goals accomplished.

And I kept doing it, well after the Narcissists had made up their minds that they wanted Rid of Me, but They were the ones who Hired Me. So, eventually, it came down to 'Never be late again or I fire you'

So I fucking blew him up and Quit. Now that I can see that nothing Those Men and Women said to me was True, or Honest, or Thought Thru...

Well, they tried to project onto ME that I was worthless, disappointing and needed to Do Better. So, I became Superhuman, and could Do everything.

And then they Hated Me. Because I called their Bluff, they wanted to have something they could Yell at someone About.
And after a certain point, they start getting nitpicky about minor details, and things they Swear they told you to do... But you know they never did.

So I went into it wanting to be Productive, and helpful, and keep things Clean, and They Wanted, deep in their hearts... For their Businesses to Fail, and for it to be someone else's fault.

And they're Everywhere. They've Spread and deepened and they're out there Destroying Lives.

So, I'm starting a new series of Posts soon: How to Identify these people, and how to cut them off. Because nobody deserves to be a Vampire Victim.