dreamstuff
I had a dream that I was flying to and arrived at Seattle. Dreams is, apparently that involved flying to Some Island and then taking some shuttle to Seattle. The city, and everything was also hella futuristic. I have had vivid dreams before, but I've never had a dream where I am looking at a cityscape and remember all these ridiculous details from it.
But idk. Nevertheless, it stirred a lot of thoughts regarding just how excited I am for this. Sometimes I wonder if I'm too excited.
future thoughts, kinstuff
I guess if the past two days and this have been any indication, it's that my need and desire for affirmation, kith, and acknowledgement in the orthocosm is high. I love the folks I've met, and I want to be near them. I want this badly, and while I simultaneously fear that the want is clouding how I see the hardships of this path, it's impossible to deny that drive.
There will always be many other logical reasons this will be a good choice. Support, career path, location.
future thoughts
I guess I fear that how badly I want this is overshadowing how hard it will be. But, as another has said… I have the drive to make this work, somehow. I'm confident that I'll find a way. I always have, somehow.
But first let's at least focus on the trip.
Or at least the day ahead ._.