species dysphoria
http://www.valsalia.com/comic/out-of-placers/oops-54/
I have this comic page saved on my phone to sort of show folks "the reverse of this is what species dysphoria is like."
This is the existential dissonance and dread I've felt off and on for my entire life. This is the feeling that never quite goes away between sections of time spend just… trying not to think of it.
I smile, I laugh, I have fun in my life. It's not always a bad thing, or even a thing on my mind. But it's there
species dysphoria
There's a lot of genuinely GOOD and downright FUN parts of this that are absolutely lovely, also.