I have no goddamn idea how to read that. Phoenix was still where That Monster lived in my dream, and yet I was scared and determined to get there for... something. What's the lesson?
Collateral damage to things I love comes from getting hung up on the memory of him?
Shit happens?
He already cost me my innocence in several ways, I've already learned that one. I don't think I was going there to scream my pain out at him... I'm not even sure white fire would work.