move always closer
I think I found the very first time I ever told someone "Move always closer to the truest you." I'm pretty sure it was the first, because it wasn't quite right, I said "Move always to be closer to the truest you."
I also accidentally dredged up a shit-ton of memories in the process, and realized that the whole situation with That Monster pushed my trans realizations back by something like two entire years. I was so _close_ to starting to ask the right questions back then...
move always closer
Strangest of all is that I now have the log in front of me, and a thing that I remember isn't there. It didn't happen. And yet it's something that I remember clearly, and something that was a prelude to my own trans realizations...
...did I imagine that it happened then?
move always closer
Did I really imagine someone saying "It sounds like maybe you have something of the same situation going on" to me simply so that I could refute it? Did my brain bring it up just so that I could shake my head and say no, my own issues are species-related, never gender?
