To preface this, I can cook, and have been told I cook very well. It is a skill I developed over the last year as a coping mechanism to a breakup back in 2018.

My issue as of the last.... Well, while, has been lack of any sort of way to get myself to meal plan. I come up with ideas and things to cook and make them as a once off. But I never have a consistent way to make things in large portions, or to plan them out. I am extremely bad at that and convenience always wins.

I will not disclose the number amount I spend eating out or ordering in per month, but it is a lot. Not to mention the damage it is doing to me physically. Plus, the stress of indecision caused by 'What do I eat?'

The obnoxious thing about it is that if I stuck to eating only the same things over and over, my body starts to grow physically ill at the textures, which is absolutely irritating. If I could subsist off of nutrient paste, I would.

I suppose the point of this rambling is just that I am open to trying to find solutions to it, and maybe I should just stock up on lots of pre-portioned microwavable or meal-ready-to-cook items... I know Whole Foods sells such, as does CostCo, and things like Blue Apron exist. I should examine these as serious options I believe.