alcohol, alcoholism
@lizmonster I remember my 21st birthday because my friends took me bar crawling. it wasn't my first time drinking, or going to a bar (we were Bad Kids), but it was my first time doing so *legally*, and since it was my birthday every bar we went to gave us a round of free drinks. (I also remember 21 was when I recognized how close I was veering to alcoholism, and decided to moderate my intake, which worked for me, fortunately.)
alcohol, alcoholism
@green I was really unhappy for an awful lot of my 20s. We romanticize the age, but I think it's disorienting and often destructive for a lot of us. I am very glad you survived.
alcohol, alcoholism
@lizmonster I had a depressive disorder, since childhood, and no idea what the problem was--I didn't figure it out and learn how to treat it for another decade and a half; I was dating an Actual Sociopath who was my very first emotionally/verbally abusive boyfriend (I didn't know that was a *thing* until later, too); and I was living in Oakland, CA, and doing... a wide variety of illegal and quasi-legal things. 9___9 I'm glad I survived too, and thank you! <3
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@lizmonster so for me the age 21 is linked directly to thoughts of dealing with alcohol, intoxication, and addiction. also "dear GOD how did I SURVIVE some of the stuff I was doing" because wow I made some incredibly bad decisions, and I was EXTREMELY LUCKY. more than once.
yeah, I'd love to have that body again, but that age was... not good for me. *shudder*