Emotional labiilty
My afternoon:
* Putter around the house feeling aimless and cruddy
* Go for a walk, discover a secret way into the cool riverside abandoned lot down the road, much excitement and glee
* Come home, productively take measurements for the yard project, until enthusiasm tips over into an overwhelming feeling of helplessness about ever being able to do what I want with it.
* Spend the next hour or so crying, mostly.
What even does my brain thing it is doing.
@indi I think it's easier when it's your land.
It's fun to try new landscaping ideas.
@ThatDamnCat It is, at least in legal terms, 'my' land. And I still have no idea what I'm doing. It looked so nice when we got here and now just... increasingly overgrown, which I actually mostly like, except where it covers up the nice bits like the rockwork?
@ThatDamnCat I don't even want a lawn, would love to just have a lot of stonework with native plants and some veggie beds. But the grass is just THERE and is SO GOOD at covering up all the nice rocks we do have. >.<