CW: Father's Day, coming out
So, the family camping trip got cancelled cause of COVID-19. I didn't send a card this year, but mom's being mom about things. Wants me to come out to dad. At one point things were conditional, had to come out to dad before she'd even try to get my name right, even though I came out to her months ago. Kinda sucky to be held hostage like that. But I'm closing on two years on HRT, he's dying, and if I'm gong to not have him around anymore, then he should know who I am before he goes.
re: CW: Father's Day, coming out
Called Dad. Tried to say what I needed to say instead of what I was supposed to say. Couldn't make it work. Couldn't get over the awkward and the uncertainty. Mom in the background being snarky didn't help (nothing bad, she just kept inserting herself. "Hi dad, Happy Father's day, I love you" Dad and I both came to the conclusion that if she was gonna keep talking for both of us we didn't really need to have the call at all.) But I /did/ ask for a time when we could just talk together. So gonna do that right before therapy this week.
re: CW: Father's Day, coming out. UPDATE!
@kelseyhusky You are a courageous husky and worthy of love. I’m proud of you for coming out to your dad. 💖
re: CW: Father's Day, coming out. UPDATE!
You did a scary thing!!!
re: CW: Father's Day, coming out. UPDATE!
So, I was supposed to call dad yesterday. The anxiety of waiting got the better of me. So I text him and say "Hey. I know I said i was gonna call you, but I don't know how busy i'm gonna be today. Nothing big, I'm just trans. Been on HRT almost 2 years. Thought you should know" Just so I could deal with the familiar anxiety of waiting for a response rather than dreading having a difficult real-time conversation.
He never responded, but mom texted me, saying that I was courageous and still loved.
Me (texting back): Yay!