It's a terrible thing, living in fear.

The stretches where i can live in the moment and not be scared about whatever the future will be are getting shorter, and they are getting farther apart.

I'm just /scared/. Of the next two months. of Georgia's runoff. Of the escalating rhetoric coming from the white house and the traitor inside it. of the silence of truth by the vehemence of delusion. of the meekness of opposition. of the balance of mass media.

Youtube channels that i've been following keep telling me that change will come from me. from local efforts. but that's not really convinicing when local efforts are either sabotaged, or just overpowered by natural institutional inertia + the active resistance of the leaders of institutions riding the FUCKING brakes.

My hope dies a little more each day. and the howling to join the void is getting louder.