csa / incest
i have a strong memory of inappropriate touching from my mother and her being very frustrated with my fear. whenever i think back on this i feel like the context excuses it, but not really. its a very bad memory that causes me a lot of distress
csa / incest
also the strong reaction i had in general. just makes me feel bad. there were a lot of things i did as a child that make me think i was used to being sexually touched by adults, by ~10 i had learned to be fearful instead of accepting. i think it stopped a few years before that