i know i could say this probably but based on history i will probably be treated like a whiny idiot and like. get a "well this is how being an adult in the real world is." which i refuse to believe but also if it that for real is true i should kill myself now
i get a lot of like. "oh you're really really smart you just procrastinate and are kind of shitty at doing things" which is true i guess but also. any time i do anything at all it takes a ton of work