i feel like no one understands that my brain and thoughts feel entirely untethered and like i cannot possibly grab & hold onto them all at once. like i have many important things but they're floating away and they slip through when i try to grab them so i am constantly losing things
i think it's easy to just see the ways in which i am inadequate because i never express anything. it seems like i am just being kind of lackluster due to an overall apathy. i mean i have apathy because im depressed.