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i dont know how to express how much pain im in constantly. everything hurts. im scared. i feel alone. i dont really understand how to deal with this so i am just hurting
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@pinkplasticwineglass im so mean to myself and ive been trying really hard for years but i just hate myself and being alive.
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@pinkplasticwineglass i like wont let myself acknowledge thoughts that arent "evidence based" because i think theyre stupid and im stupid but it doesnt help to do that bc i feel them regardless. im a shitty selfish person whose friends are way too forgiving and im never going to be around people that make me happy
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i dont like myself and i dont understand why. it feels like my brain is just broken in the spots that are supposed to hold the thoughts that tell you youre worth something because literally every thought i habe or thing i do i get really uncomfortable with or frustrated with myself and think im immature and embarrassing and not worth being alive