Okay though so I actually am probably plural and I have no idea what that actually means for me or how to make progress on understanding things. Several times in the last couple of years now, new folks have suddenly show up or take front unexpectedly, but even as I try to establish communication their presence fades in like a week. I don't know where to go from there.
I have a suspicion that a big part of the confusion here is I'm trying to jam my experiences into the typical plurality narratives I've been handed when my own stuff doesn't actually fit very well.