dissociation, sad
I can't tell if I'm lowkey dissociating or just really tired from last night (is there a difference?) but either way I feel disconnected and also kinda sad. It's bedtime and I'm hoping sleep will help.
...except that I gotta get up and deal with the whole work thing tomorrow, early. Not exactly the best for mood resetting.
I guess these random sads are some of the least severe they've ever been (thnaks, meds) but it still kinda sucks?
mh
Every once in a while I have to remind myself that BP2 /doesn't get better/. This is just gonna be what my life is. Meds make it bearable but that isn't the same as being cured, and even then bads still bubble up.
And that's part of why I don't really like the term "mental illness". Illness sounds like something that comes over you and can be cured, rather than something that's baked into who you are.