negative, suicide ment
i think about the things that get said when people commit suicide
"oh they weren't showing signs" "they didn't reach out for help" etc
i've been showing signs and crying for help for literal years
anyway also, the thing that you don't get told too is that, if you don't start immediately showing signs that you're getting better, you get dropped like a hot potato and the cycle begins again
so its to the point where people offer to help and i just reject them outright