self-aware double standards
*sees one of those positive messages directed at everyone*
my brain: oh yeah! this really does apply to everyone... except for me, of course!
hee, nice try, brain
maybe my resolution for next year should be to get out there as much as possible to counteract my self-exclusionary thoughts?
getting anxious over nothing is the last thing i need, and i think getting some proof that it's all unfounded might be just what i need
self-aware double standards
i think my biggest fear is not being worth the mental energy of others
but that's not something i try to solicit to begin with--except in a few cases where i've convinced myself that it's absolutely worth it
i mean, it does make my twitter extremely browsable, but it also feels like i'm basically treating myself like a brand, which is ahahaha not good
that's less true here--which is freeing! but there are still a few places where i've decided i'm likely not welcome
