@ctrlaltdog@chitter.xyz oh, yikes
i wonder if the nighttime quiet is what brings out your worst anxieties too? because if so, maybe you can try to never sleep when the sun is out, and never stay up when it goes away?
i know that's probably impossible but, have you considered trying some melatonin? your body generates it naturally, so taking more of it is pretty safe, and might be able to kickstart a new habit..?