sometimes people tell i should try to draw in more permanent mediums because committing to lines and being more okay with drawing badly helps with being creative
but i find in practice the opposite seems to be true?
like, being able to erase and experiment with 90 different things quickly has been a lot more informative and fun for seeing what works, and what doesn't
if i try to draw with things i can't tweak, i just draw worse and try less since each experiment takes so much more effort
@thingywott the future of technology in art is about accessibility for all. so never feel ashamed for not having the same kinetic relationship to your artistic output that many artists have with their own—our own nervous systems can only guide us to what allows us to work best to express ourselves
@dexiheart oh, absolutely!
it's always just interesting when that relationship goes squarely against the advice of people who are much better than i am
it means that i internalize advice i don't really feel quite a lot because the people who gave it to me know a lot more than i do, and "what if my instincts are secretly bad habit pitfalls?"
@thingywott i vibe with that hard! it manifests itself as a lack of confidence which is apparently the thing i struggle the most with (as per my psychiatrist haha)
@dexiheart yuuuuup, there's definitely a confidence aspect to it
i guess it's pretty natural to lean on the opinions of others when you aren't confident in your own–but that also means that it can be pretty easy to justify ignoring how things work differently for you, and that's always a disaster
it's really hard to tell when things that make your creativity unique are shining through vs not just lacking important context–after all, you can't get external confirmation for something so internal
(this thought is brought to you by trying to do linework in pencil crayon, doing experimental coloring with gel pen, extremely disliking the result, and not being able to play around with it at all to find out what would work better)