not allowed to talk about weed on tilde.chat irc anymore so i guess that's one less place for me to socialize
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it's not like i woke up super depressed from shitty dreams wanting -- nay, needing -- to talk about it or anything
i wonder if you're still allowed to talk about alcohol
that'd be super shitty if so
i've only been awake for like 20 minutes and i'm already done with life today
if there are three things keeping me from imploding they are (were):
talking to people on discord
talking to people in my guild wars 1 alliance
and finally, talking to people on irc
these're the three main places i socialize
well, more like two now
except irc was super reliable, people were basically always online, so it feels like even a bigger loss than just 1/3
oh well!!! fuck it
i'm not gonna try dancing around not talking about weed, that's IMPOSSIBLE for me
i know i'd just fuck up and accidentally mention weed a bunch and piss people off anyway
so "taking the high road" in this situation is just leaving
"but vanta don't you socialize on here?"
lol i'm still afraid to reply to people here
and i don't really consider my social meter filled by being here
i don't really talk to anyone
i just throw words into the void
venting about someone being shitty about weed
also before i left tilde.chat irc a mod told me that smoking weed was a bad way of dealing with being sad
guess i'll just fuckin die then?
i mean obviously long-term i need to get more vitamin D but that's expensive and i don't have all the cash i need rn
and ofc i also need to start seeing a therapist to work to develop coping strategies and such
but that's all more long-term stuff, big things i need to get around to doing
if i'm feelin sad in the moment wtf reason would i have to not smoke weed to feel better??? such nonsense logic
venting about someone being shitty about weed
also
i have depression
i use medical weed for that
it's not the main thing i use it for
but it's one of the things
so wtf
what a shitty thing to say
this person has been shitty to me before so it only makes sense
one less reason to ever go back there
venting about someone being shitty about weed
it's like
gee thanks
for basically saying
"the one thing keeping you alive is bad actually"
re: venting about someone being shitty about weed
@vantablack oh yikes
and that was on the tildeverse?? that's pretty much the last place i expected people to be shitty about that
and if not, i feel like a good chunk of ~town probably would be with you at least
in the meantime, i hope you feel better soon..!
